without you; it's dark

Ive done alot of thinkin today.. and heres what ive come up with

from a third party perspective, i really believe that im a fucked up person. A person without morals nor values.. there couldnt be a person more, deciteful, scheming and sly.. Some how, somewhere quite sometime ago ive managed to lose my morals.. I wasnt the most pious nor was i the most kind.. But i believed.. in somethings.. principals..

Rules Which govern my train of thought.. hence influencing my actions too... about 2 to 3 weeks back, it was as if i had lost them completely... When i lost sofia, i truely lost alot of things.. i lost myself. i lost my drive.. i lost my morals..Somehow i feel as if they are comming back..

And im happy, but i still feel empty..
Now how can you be happy when you feel empty...

I really dont know, but its like i feel much better now... Sometimes i look at ben, and the more emo guys that are around.. and i wonder hows life, like that.. in a constant state believeing that there is love and it some how exsits in our sub concious..

Even back then when i actually had morals.. i lost hope in feeling that way,coz after awhile everthing falls into place. you snap back to reality and then your faced with the horros of daily life which pull you away from ever being together in your own world with your partner..sad.. but inevitably true..

But for now, il just let it slide.. pictures speak a thousand words.. but i found a song that sings exactly what i want to say.. i think i love her... what else could be holding me back from just walking away...

--All for you--
Finally I figured out But it took a long, long time But now there's a turnabout Maybe 'cause I'm trying There's been times, I'm so confused All my roads, They lead to you I just can't turn and walk away

It's hard to say what it is I see in you Wonder if I'll always be with you But words can't say, And I can't do Enough to prove, It's all for you

I thought I'd seen it all 'Cause it's been a long, long time But then we'll trip and fall Wondering if I'm blind

Rain comes pouring down Falling from blue skies Words without a sound Coming from your eyes Finally I figured out But it took a long, long time But now there's a turnabout Maybe cause I'm trying

It's hard to say
It's hard to say
It's all for you

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