without you; it's dark

Just got back home, pretty fun time yesterday night actually.. its amazing how hanging out with friends actually take your mind off things, its not how you ask them to. its just the company, that unexplainable relief when you see the people around laughing having a ball, Im glad i met these guys. im glad i met my bro,

2 years ago things were so different, i remeber siting inside the library in awe, watching and hoping that one day i would be capable of doing what he was doing.. staying in, putting extra hours into lessons that sometimes he wasnt even paid for.. doing all the things that he did, advicing me not only about music, but about life in general..

if not for all of these things, i wouldnt be doing what i love doing.. talk about making an impact on somebody's life.. this dude literaly engraved his influence and im grateful that he botherd to in the first place..

sometimes i lead my self on to think that i can handle seemingly imposible situations, that constant belief that i can be better than what i am now is what drives me.. but as they all say, you wisen up, become mature and understand more things and approach things in a better light as you grow older.. slow down lifes pace? or speed up? im not sure yet. but im sure after a good nights rest, il be more certian when i awake..

Idealistic views apply for me... when it comes to matters of the heart. yes they do.. i know ive struck people as practial, and almost heartless at times.. but when it comes to people i care about, im naieve, almost child like in my train of thought.. why? coz i believe, that there is good.. i believe in people, i believe in good deeds win over other good deeds.. i belive in honesty, transparency and trust.. i believe in all of these things but most importantly, i believe in you...
yes you... the SMGWLBWHTLLG. :)

No matter how fucked up people may be, there is always a tinge of goodness in thier hearts.. no matter how impossible the situation might seem, there is always a way to move... to strike, with impecable precison and fufil what needs to be fufilled. No matter how many times you push me down, i assure you.. i will get up again..

Egoistic? no, i prefer to think of it as confidence..

confidence in myself, and the people around me.. Why do i bother going to such extremes? why do i believe in all of these things? why am i so navie? could it possibly be because im young? inexperienced? i assure you, enough bad things have happend, enough to make me a guarded individual with individuals that i do not trust.. young, yes that i am.. nevertheless,

il tell you why i bother

because i care... for the people that i trust.. the people that mean more to me.. the people who could possibly hurt me in future because i leave my self open to them, i give them more of me then they should ever see.. i show them the things about me that even im not comfy with..

Thank you, to those who know, youve made an impact on my life.. and im sure you people do know who you are.. i hope ive done just as much for you..

im glad for a lot of things,
glad and grateful.

left a mark at 5:07 PM

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