without you; it's dark

the brain is tired, stayed up the whole night playing games with brandon.. reached home at about 8 am.. and now i cant sleep..

i have to say my thoughts flow more fluently during these times.. i cant explain why, mabye fatigue causes the brain to cross out reason.. mabye at times like this i can actually put into words what i really want to say without having to think about it so much that i lose my train of thought and get lost somewhere inbetween the beginning and the end..

times have been complex, and that in itself is a problem.. things should be simple, either/or, make your choice and move on, progress.. push forth, look back only to pick out the good from the bad, reflect? should i even bother? looking back into the past always has its way of making things shady, momentarily clouding better judgment of what seems to be the right thing to do.. your state of mind shifts cause you to do things that you would have done in the past, after awhile you snap back to the present.. by then its too late, things cannot be undone..

There is no backspace, delete/empty recyle bin in the real world..

tell me what to do, give me direction. give me time. understand my situation.

i could be your pain.. its ironic how things turned, we swaped places..

id give up.. the smarter more carefree more self centerd me would have let go... but no.. i choose to stay, im just wating for vengence to come and slap me around abit drag me out of my seat and say hello to the world from a different perspective..

i hope that dosent happen anytime soon..

lights will guide you home,
and ignite your bones,

will you try to fix me

left a mark at 5:23 PM

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